It's been a while since I've posted. There have been quite a few things on my mind and I've been trying to make sense of what my top priorities should be at the moment.
Muffy my 6 yr old Bichon-Maltese is always my top priority!
I've been thinking on what of the many things i want to do in my life which should be done first. Sometimes I feel like time is slipping away on me. Some times i wonder if i could accomplish some of the things that i want to do even though i have limitations due to fibromyalgia.
I've spent a lot of time tonight on petfinder. Reading articles and browsing through some shelters/rescues in Ontario which is the province that i live in.
I have not been doing the yoga lately. Ever since my appt with my Dr earlier in the month I've kinda been off the yoga. I've tried to do as many other exercises as i can fit in, mostly exercises that i did at the age of 16 when I'd decided i wanted to lose weight and at that time i did lose over 60 lbs. Although at that time i was exercising for at least 4hrs a day, which is not something that i have the energy to do now...at this point i definitely can't handle 4hrs of exercise per day. I'm good for 30 mins up to an hour of exercise per day and that does not include my walks with Muffy.
Other that the soul searching and the research I've been doing I've been sort of living in a state of looking forward to the weekends since i usually get to see my Mom for a short amount of time on Saturdays.
And that's about all i can remember right now of what's been happening.
Hugs,
d
24 June 2011
05 June 2011
Not Sure I Understand
Over the past year i was told by 3 different men that i had to lose weight or they would not be interested in me. I've consulted various friends about this because I think I'm a good person and i don't understand why men don't want to accept me for who and what i am. well, one friend told me that i was better off without those men and another friend told me that men are more attracted by looks than women are...and the others had harsh words to say about what these men said to me. i still don't know what to think and no i am not losing weight for them, I'm doing it for myself. ever since i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia i have gained weight maybe about 10 lbs per year and i do miss the way my body used to be. I realize that I'm a bit older now so i may not be able to get back down to the weight that I was previously at but i want to try to get as close to it as i can.
In my last post i believe i mentioned that i had decided to start trying to lose weight. Well, all of last week i did manage to do some yoga, although there was one day that i skipped because i was exhausted, due to my chronic fatigue syndrome. Well, the package that the yoga DVD came in said that i should be doing the yoga morning and evening...well I've managed the morning, but not the evening yet.
My first day was kind of an ordeal for me. I was sweating buckets and my body didn't want to be doing this and was giving me all kinds of sharp short pains in various spots, and these spots were not connected to what i was trying to do.
Kind of hard to explain for those of you who don't have Fibromyalgia those sharp overwhelming pains are a fact of life for me and others who have Fibromyalgia. I was determined that i was not going to let the fibro deter from doing what i felt i needed to do in order to lose weight.
Day two was something else altogether. No buckets of sweat! No sharp unpredictable pains! So after the segment that i usually do was done i said 'that couldn't have been the same one as yesterday'. i looked at the clock and it had been 45 minutes, so yes it was the same thing I'd done the day before. I was quite surprised because it had all gone so much easier than the previous day, when the segment ended i felt like i was just getting started.
Over the course of the rest of the week i noticed that i had a bit more energy throughout the day which for me is a huge change because with the chronic fatigue syndrome I'm exhausted all the time. It was not a huge change in my energy level it was just a very tiny difference, but it was one that i noticed and it gave me a moment of happiness.
i haven't gotten access to a scale yet and i haven't seen or noticed any other changes in my body so I'm starting to wonder if it will be possible to lose weight with doing the yoga. When i came up with the idea i was sure the yoga would help me to lose weight, but I'm now having doubts on that. i know it's only been a week so i will just stick to it and try to do as much as i can. I'm hoping in the coming week to be able to start making time for at least a few evening sessions of yoga.
Wish me luck!!
In my last post i believe i mentioned that i had decided to start trying to lose weight. Well, all of last week i did manage to do some yoga, although there was one day that i skipped because i was exhausted, due to my chronic fatigue syndrome. Well, the package that the yoga DVD came in said that i should be doing the yoga morning and evening...well I've managed the morning, but not the evening yet.
My first day was kind of an ordeal for me. I was sweating buckets and my body didn't want to be doing this and was giving me all kinds of sharp short pains in various spots, and these spots were not connected to what i was trying to do.
Kind of hard to explain for those of you who don't have Fibromyalgia those sharp overwhelming pains are a fact of life for me and others who have Fibromyalgia. I was determined that i was not going to let the fibro deter from doing what i felt i needed to do in order to lose weight.
Day two was something else altogether. No buckets of sweat! No sharp unpredictable pains! So after the segment that i usually do was done i said 'that couldn't have been the same one as yesterday'. i looked at the clock and it had been 45 minutes, so yes it was the same thing I'd done the day before. I was quite surprised because it had all gone so much easier than the previous day, when the segment ended i felt like i was just getting started.
Over the course of the rest of the week i noticed that i had a bit more energy throughout the day which for me is a huge change because with the chronic fatigue syndrome I'm exhausted all the time. It was not a huge change in my energy level it was just a very tiny difference, but it was one that i noticed and it gave me a moment of happiness.
i haven't gotten access to a scale yet and i haven't seen or noticed any other changes in my body so I'm starting to wonder if it will be possible to lose weight with doing the yoga. When i came up with the idea i was sure the yoga would help me to lose weight, but I'm now having doubts on that. i know it's only been a week so i will just stick to it and try to do as much as i can. I'm hoping in the coming week to be able to start making time for at least a few evening sessions of yoga.
Wish me luck!!
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