Busy to Boring

    The last half of this week was stressing and busy, well for me anyway, others probably wouldn't have considered it busy but with the way that my life goes it was busy for me. I have been scrambling to try my best to get some documents together for my annual review(for my geared-to-income apartment), which included many phone calls, and I do mean many these kept me occupied from Wednesday to Friday morning. Why is it that when you need to track down a few specific people you get anyone but them? So I had to make a lot of phone calls. The results are that I now have all but two of the documents, one of which will be ready to be picked up Monday morning...oh wait, it is now Monday...so just a few more hours until I can pick up that document and the last one I need is being sent in the mail. I have to have all submitted by the 21st of this month which is rapidly approaching.
     I'm planning to bring in what I have today after I pick up one of the documents in town and then I will hope that the other arrives before the 21st so that I can get that one in too.

    Friday was well, interesting, is one word for it I guess. Joram, my furry sweetheart woke me up at 4:30am as he has been doing a lot lately, he really wanted to go outside. I was lucky enough to wake up with a really bad migraine. I was dizzy and nauseous and knew I would be spending some quality time in the bathroom, which I did all morning! That finally abated around 11:30am, shortly after I got a call from a friend to invite me to go shopping with her. She knows that I don't have a car and rely on public transportation which makes it hard to get much shopping done. With how bad my Fibromyalgia is I can't carry very many bags at a time so when I take the bus into town for shopping I'm limited in what I can get.
   Long story short, my generous and kind friend that does have a car took me shopping with her. I was able to get a few things for Joram and me that I really needed including: for Joram - a new toy that he is crazy about, a clipper kit(i can now put the scissors away and trimming is so much easier), treats; for me: 2 new bras that fit good and that I am happy with, a few snacks, and a very satisfying trip to the book store.

   I usually only get one or two new books per month as I am on a very limited income, but I had some extra money this month as back pay that I was waiting for came in. That meant that I could take advantage of a promotion at the book store to get bonus points on my rewards card. I think my friend and the staff of the book store thought I had gone crazy as I was excited and quite enjoying myself in picking out my books. At the end of my good time in the book store I came away with 4 new books and two new bookmarks. My book collection is growing!!! Growing slowly but it is growing.

   Yesterday I took the opportunity to use the new clipper kit for the first time which also happened to be my first time of using a clipper ever. It was so much easier than trying to trim Joram with scissors. It was so fast. I didn't get perfect results, but I'm satisfied with my first clipper trim. Joram was really good he stood still the whole time (which never would have happened with the scissors) until I got to his front paws. He really didn't want me to trim his front paws. So I decided to leave them for now as he had been so good and plan on definitely getting his front paws trimmed later today.

This is what he looked like after his trim. I had a hard time keeping him still for the picture, had many blurry pictures. By the time I finally got this picture I was struggling with him and my phone. Didn't realize the picture was taken sideways until after. By that point I was so frustrated I decided to keep this picture and figured I could rotate it when I posted it...yet I can't figure out how to do that! Can anyone help me out on how to rotate the picture!???!

That brings us to Sunday. I wasn't feeling good at all so I decided to stay home and take it easy for the day. Turns out that I should have gone out or made some kind of plans as I ended up being so bored. But I did get through Sunday and now it's past 12am so it is now Monday although I haven't gone to sleep yet I will be headed there in a while. Hope to have good dreams!

BB

d&j





Let's warble

  Once again it's been a long time, but I'm not giving up. I may not be consistent but I am persistent.

   I spent a little while thinking about what I wanted to say tonite and changed my mind several times.
   Since the beginning of this year I've been going through lots of troubles. Family trouble, personal trouble, career trouble, friends, 'men', Joram, neighbors and quite a few other types of troubles. Oh, and by the way even though I'm not allowed to work I do consider myself to still be working on a career. I started working on a few things last year mostly to keep my mind engaged and myself busy and I do hope to turn it into a career in the near future. Not saying what it is but it's fun!

For those of you that don't know Joram is my 7yr old Maltese mix and he's the cutest most lovable dog I've ever had the pleasure to know.
Today I was in a brooding mood and decided to look around on the net a bit more than usual and kept finding pictures with text on them that said 'It may not stop storming, so learn to dance in the rain'. It's been a really long time since I'd come across the exact same thing so many times in one day, which led me to thinking that it was something I needed to see today.

Lately, even though so many things are wrong in my life and stressing me out big time, I've been hanging onto hope, doing all that I can to stay positive, think positive, smile, laugh and play with Joram(he always puts a smile on my face because he's such a silly guy). I really believe that making a concrete and sincere effort to do all these things daily can make a huge difference in one's life.

I spoke to my Mom on the phone over an hour ago and her voice sounded strange so of course I asked her about it. She said she's exhausted. Poor soul she does so much!! Much more than I think she should do, but it seems that she's determined to pack as much as she can into every day. I hope that she gets a good sleep tonite. I'm hoping the same for myself, a good sleep would really help out right now...so think i will go feed my fb-fish and then head to bed.
Be Blessed!!!
Hugs, Dixtra
XOXO

Thoughts of my day yesterday

I'd meant to do this post yesterday evening but i got caught up with other things and didn't have the time for this until now.

Yesterday afternoon i got a bit caught up in researching a few things on the net. One of the main things on my mind right now is this computer. It's not mine, it actually belongs to my Mom. she had lent it to me for a while. She hasn't asked for it back yet as she had said she wanted to get herself a new computer, however i haven't heard if she did that or no. So i keep thinking of the fact that she may ask for this one back, and if she doesn't i really need to get a new computer for various reasons.

This computer:
-works fairly well, but does not allow me to do all that i need to do
-is really really slow
-i can't run my graphics program
-my email program won't work on it

Well, there are other things as well but the above will do for now. So, i did spend part of the afternoon checking out different computers on the net.

For the second part of the afternoon i went for a walk with my beloved dog Jorham(formerly called Muffy). He was so excited to know that he was going for a walk that it took me a really long time to put on his harness and leash. Jorham was tired and really thirsty by the time we got back. After we got back inside the apartment building i was trying to have a conversation with one of my friends and Jorham kept pulling at his leash. He was really insistent and stubborn due to the fact the he just wanted to be in our apartment so he could play for a few minutes and then have a long nap.

He's actually napping in his little bed that i keep beside my desk right now. I couldn't get to sleep tonight which is why I'm here at this hour.

And now it is today, Saturday and i have no idea yet what we're going to do today, but i do know that i want to get some sleep, hopefully before the sun comes up. Yep, the sun hasn't come up here yet, but i know that it will soon. So i will end here for now and attempt yet again to try to get to sleep.

Hugs,
Dixtra
XOXO

I'm here

I haven't been doing good lately. I've been having a lot of trouble with my anxiety. Recently I've started doing at least one thing each day that pushes me out of my comfort zone no matter how small that thing may be and I've been finding that it is helping a bit.

It's been a long time, not sure exactly how long that I've actually turned on my computer, it may sound strange but i have been shying away from turning on my computer because I've been feeling that i couldn't handle contact with other people, which lets me know that it is not just my anxiety, but also my depression which has been limiting what i feel i am able to do.

I'm expecting my sister to be getting here for a short visit in just under two hours. I spoke to her last night and she said she would be here, so unless an emergency crops up i will be having a visit which will help me a bit.

I've had the feeling lately that my neighbors in my apartment building that i was friendly with are not really wanting to have much to do with me lately. I don't know if they're just respecting the fact of what I'm going through and giving me the space i need to get back to feeling myself. Or is there something going on? Is there some reason that i feel they're hurrying to get away from me when i want to talk to them? I have no idea what is going on but i am hoping that i haven't lost the friendship of those neighbors that i liked to spend time with. See it's been a couple of months that I've been trying to get past this anxiety/depression thing that I'm having trouble with right now.

I haven't been going to Church either while this has been going on and I'm hoping that my friends there will receive me well when i do go back. I'm hoping to get to go to Church this weekend, as long as I'm feeling OK on Sunday then i definitely want to go to Church. There are so many people there that are always nice to me and i feel that is the perfect place to get myself used to going out and interacting with people again.
Hugs,
Dixtra
XOXO

What's with me?

Life has been fairly uneventful lately. I was not able to go to Church last Sunday due to health reasons and the Sunday before that I did get to go, but it was the first time I got to go to Church for a few months. There were various reasons that I wasn't able to get to Church for that length of time which I don't want to get into here right now.


Joram (formerly known as Muffy) has been doing well. He still lights up my life! For those of you that don't know Joram is my 6yr old Bichon Maltese(he'll be 7 in April) that I've had now for a year and a half. He's still mischievous and much more energetic than me, which keeps me more active than I might otherwise be.

I've had a lot of things on my mind. At this time of year the thought usually uppermost in my mind are Christmas gifts. I'm trying to plan out what I’m going to get for the family members and friends that I do buy gifts for. Another thing on my mind is the impending visit of a good friend. He should be arriving by the end of the week and I am very much looking forward to this visit as it has been 2 yrs since I last saw him.

A couple of months ago my Mom had another mild heart attack (and since I tend to worry about everyone that I know) I’ve been worried. She has since been attending cardiac education classes(again) which she just finished up I think it was last week and now she's got 2 months of cardiac exercise program to go through. She seems to be doing alright. She sure has been keeping herself busy. I usually have to leave a message for her these days as she has been keeping herself so busy.
Hugs,
Dixtra
XOXO